Your 5th grade experience is basically identical to mine. I get called dyke and whore a lot now because I am openly bisexual but have a boyfriend (and yes, I am 13. But this guy is... Different.) so people like to call me greedy for liking more than one gender. It's stupid when it comes to school and most of that isn't what bothers me.
The fact is, a majority of the people I meet mistake me as mentally ill and I meet about 95 % of the criteria for several mental illnesses. I know that there's something wrong with me but no one seems willing to help. My therapist says that my depression is caused by sleep deprivation but that's not right. I know it's not but what she's doing hasn't had any positive effect on me. It's actually made me worse. And now I feel like I'm too far gone (yes, you may make the pun) to recover from this.
I've had social anxiety and OCD for 7 years now, it has gotten so much better now that I'm older though, and been through a lot.
I used t… moreo be so shy in fifth grade that I was scared to breathe in front of people. I would never talk, smile, laugh, or eat in front of any one besides a small circle of family and people I knew. My only friend at the time would tell me how everyone said I was weird, ugly, crazy, a dyke, you get the idea. I remember feeling so trapped and like no one cared.
My motto now is literally just eff what people think. I'm gonna be me, and if you don't like it, then so what? It isn't going to be easy. One thing that helped me a lot was to fake it until I made it- I'd forget all about being shy Maddi and become some confident person, and eventually that confidence was real.
Oh, maybe I worded that wrong. I was self-conscious and asked her what people would say about me and so she told me. Ironically, one of the … morereasons we aren't friends anymore is because she was so used to me being her shadow that she got pissed when I started taking the spotlight xD
Oh, maybe I worded that wrong. I was self-conscious and asked her what people would say about me and so she told me. Ironically, one of the … morereasons we aren't friends anymore is because she was so used to me being her shadow that she got pissed when I started taking the spotlight xD
It isn't, but don't worry, scientists and astrologists are working around the clock to invent a telescope that could get a glimpse of Brent's "Microsoft".
Sometimes I feel so bad that I wish I was never born. I think today is one of those days, where I've been so scared to leave my room because… more of my social anxiety and agoraphobia. Sometimes, I feel like I'm drowning but no one hears my cries for help. Sometimes I wish I could scream and stab and hurt everything but then I realize how screwed up I really am.
Believe me, having social anxiety, agoraphobia, and depression sucks. I just really needed to get this off my chest because I can't muster up the strength to say it out loud. My parents think I can somehow control it but I can't. Everyday is like another day in hell because you can never escape your mind.
I really I don't want to go to school tomorrow, any ideas on how I can stay home?
And if you want my opinion on school...
Edit: Just kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a crappy day, and I feel pretty sick today.
I really I don't want to go to school tomorrow, any ideas on how I can stay home?
And if you want my opinion on school...
Edit: Just kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a crappy day, and I feel pretty sick today.
In late middle school whore was practically synonymous with my name. And you're only 13 (I'm sure you are sick of hearing that, sorry) so you can't be too far gone. This is only a fraction of the life you will live.
You're pretty brave for coming out as openly bi. I've recently been wondering if I'm bi-curious. I hate how people think sexuality is such a set thing- STRAIGHT, GAY, BI and those are the boxes you are categorized in. I think that it is a lot more fluid and complicated and most people would be surprised to find that the lines between these sexualities blur.
Your 5th grade experience is basically identical to mine. I get called dyke and whore a lot now because I am openly bisexual but have a boyf… moreriend (and yes, I am 13. But this guy is... Different.) so people like to call me greedy for liking more than one gender. It's stupid when it comes to school and most of that isn't what bothers me.
The fact is, a majority of the people I meet mistake me as mentally ill and I meet about 95 % of the criteria for several mental illnesses. I know that there's something wrong with me but no one seems willing to help. My therapist says that my depression is caused by sleep deprivation but that's not right. I know it's not but what she's doing hasn't had any positive effect on me. It's actually made me worse. And now I feel like I'm too far gone (yes, you may make the pun) to recover from this.
You guys adopted me since my family died in the car accident. You were friends with my family so you brought me in before you had kids. I'm the oldest one so I have the most responsibility of the three.
I really I don't want to go to school tomorrow, any ideas on how I can stay home?
And if you want my opinion on school...
Edit: Just kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a crappy day, and I feel pretty sick today.
You'll pull through, I know it seems like most classes and material is bullshit, it is, but the most important thing you learn in school is the responsibility you need to take, and you'll need that in the future.
I really I don't want to go to school tomorrow, any ideas on how I can stay home?
And if you want my opinion on school...
Edit: Just kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a crappy day, and I feel pretty sick today.
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So you want Pro's ass in your face?!?
Your 5th grade experience is basically identical to mine. I get called dyke and whore a lot now because I am openly bisexual but have a boyfriend (and yes, I am 13. But this guy is... Different.) so people like to call me greedy for liking more than one gender. It's stupid when it comes to school and most of that isn't what bothers me.
The fact is, a majority of the people I meet mistake me as mentally ill and I meet about 95 % of the criteria for several mental illnesses. I know that there's something wrong with me but no one seems willing to help. My therapist says that my depression is caused by sleep deprivation but that's not right. I know it's not but what she's doing hasn't had any positive effect on me. It's actually made me worse. And now I feel like I'm too far gone (yes, you may make the pun) to recover from this.
XD If a friend ever said that about me they can GTFO if they are in my spotlight or not
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"Telescope of the year, was able to see Brent's wobbles" -Brent's Lady
XD I WAS EVEN PRINCESS KITTY :P
O_O Dad? Have you been watching your "stories" again?
Teehee.
@LeeTheProfessional
He says he has an idea on how the characters look like.
How the tables have turned. lol
evil :O
It isn't, but don't worry, scientists and astrologists are working around the clock to invent a telescope that could get a glimpse of Brent's "Microsoft".
You'll see i'll get her, i always do.
damn
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I really I don't want to go to school tomorrow, any ideas on how I can stay home?
And if you want my opinion on school...
Edit: Just kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a crappy day, and I feel pretty sick today.
Dem techniques, I can feel you're getting closer!
pff yeah yeah badass pro won't show his true colours :P
Hey, it's okay. We're all here to PM and talk.
I sense a tone of sarcasm in your voice young apprentice.
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You're right, I was just kidding with that post/comment or whatever it's called.
I'm in one of those schools that everyone's not very nice. You know?
If you skip school, it will just make it harder. Stay in it as much as you can.
In late middle school whore was practically synonymous with my name. And you're only 13 (I'm sure you are sick of hearing that, sorry) so you can't be too far gone. This is only a fraction of the life you will live.
You're pretty brave for coming out as openly bi. I've recently been wondering if I'm bi-curious. I hate how people think sexuality is such a set thing- STRAIGHT, GAY, BI and those are the boxes you are categorized in. I think that it is a lot more fluid and complicated and most people would be surprised to find that the lines between these sexualities blur.
I don't even remember me giving birth to him.
You guys adopted me since my family died in the car accident. You were friends with my family so you brought me in before you had kids. I'm the oldest one so I have the most responsibility of the three.
maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe
I'll let you do your work :x
I'm awake I'm alive!
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2aJUnltwsqs
Look, I was kidding, I have a feeling that tomorrow's gonna be a bad day, I will.
XD i'll forgive you this time!
I have an idea!!
Suck it up and go.
You're very confident, that's a good quality!
Well, good luck, you'll need it.
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Well, add to fact I feel horrible today, I'm sick.
I just coughed up a lung whoooo yeaaahhh!
Yeah, that was kinda harsh of me anyways. School's really worth it, though. Trust me. Try to think on the positive side of things.
@bloop
You'll pull through, I know it seems like most classes and material is bullshit, it is, but the most important thing you learn in school is the responsibility you need to take, and you'll need that in the future.
o shit
Now stand 50 feet away from me pls