liar, this thread is never fascinating. *belts out "Hide Your Heart" by KISS*
...Johnny better run, better run...
edit 80min later: you know; sometimes I feel old even though I'm not. I think it's this whole "growing up with the internet" thing. I mean literally. It was simply theory when I was a child and became pretty much what it is today when I was 16-17. Well, that and the fact I like a lot of music that was coming out around the time I was born.
Also; I resent the locking of the 'law and order out' thread by GuruGuru, as the game was simply what other NBC franchises would make fun adventure games.
Also; I resent the locking of the 'law and order out' thread by GuruGuru, as the game was simply what other NBC franchises would make fun adventure games.
Oh, that's what that was? I wasn't sure exactly what he was trying to say there, I just assumed he had the wrong forum. Like I said, it didn't seem like a forum game or even coherent to me. But if you take issue with it and see forum game potential in it, then have at it.
I've been under a lot of stress lately, and having nervous breakdown which are, well, not the same as the panic attack and agoraphobia I have suffered from in the past in that they have different triggers and these triggers seem more punctual, but still damn inconvenient and painful.
I'm seeing my doctor again to talk about the results of my blood work and I've decided to ask if he can direct me to a psychiatrist (I could contact one directly but then it wouldn't be free).
However I'm happy to report that I've been dealing with the stress and doing all I could think of to lower it, and faced the triggers rather than avoid them (for instance if the idea of having to do something was cause of stress, I've gathered my strength and done it rather than procrastinate and grow more and more stressed out about it). I've also gathered a range of things that help relax me and force myself to do them even though I'm "not in the mood" when I start.
Sadly, I have had the hardest time sleeping in the past week, which is almost certainly related, but doesn't help. I'm hoping that will pass.
I'll probably have more to say after I see my main doctor on Monday.
I have a feeling I could slip into a state of depression, considering how crap life is going for me at the moment.
(Bad luck is not helping. This morning I knocked over my Max figuring when I was trying to get a pen, His ears broke off!
I tried to stick them back on with superglue, but it didn't work, and started to eat away the paint, and it started to stick my fingers together, and I had glue all over my hands the whole day and I spent all my idle time just scraping it off!
Thats not the worse part either.
The worst part was realising how pointless and preventable all this was, since I didn't actually get to use the pen, as it burst before I had a chance to use it! X'O)
But I am trying to be optimistic, since I really hated being depressed the last time I hit rock bottom.
Good god I have my videogames. I'd go mad without them!
*edit* this post is directed at avistew. But I guess it could apply to others too!
Sorry to hear about that. I had an experience with very mild nervous attacks a while back. On the day I would have a driving lesson, I would completely loose my appetite, and go without eating the entire day. I would usually vomit too (although only stomach acid came out). I went to group counselling classes, which helped a bit, but in the end, I solved the issue by taking a break from it and changed instructors, and it eventually righted itself after a couple of months (having had the symptons getting steadily worse for 9 months or so)
I think my issue was slightly similar to what you described (the build up), and you seem to be doing the right thing. I was always much better the moment I started my lesson, never feeling ill during one. There's not much I can really say to help you, considering your attacks sound far worse then what I used to have (or maybe still do. When I was working over christmas, I had a lack of appetite for most days, and I vomited once in the morning too.). I think counselling and psychiatrics can work well, but only if it's tailored to you. My course was 9 weeks long, and only half of one session was relevent to me. The rest was all about anger management, and dealing with arguements and stuff. But yeah, try everything. Something might help you. Have you tried rescue remedy? My mother swears by the stuff.
Today is the day I endeavor to get banned. You'll see. I'll show ya.
Haven't you learned that everything always turns out the opposite of what you're aiming for? Like that time with Sim City when everyone moved into your oppressive police state, payed their taxes, and had excessive national pride?
I spent a good chunk of the day in an non-air conditioned building full of crumbling drywall, dust and middle-aged men with nothing better to do than hammer away at a wall. I'm feeling drained of energy and my back hurts from constantly having to bend over to pick up screws that wouldn't stay fucking still, but on the plus side, I got to use a jigsaw and now I can brag to everybody about how I did a good thing by helping build a house for some homeless guy I don't know.
Okay I just game up with another crazy videogame idea.
Basically its a videogame, a really basic one, but the real game is actually getting around to playing it.
So it would basically be DRM: The Video Game!
So it would include:
- "Online" activation, (which would be deliberately long and tedious, with "connection" errors, and lots of forms and tickboxes ("I agree to sacrifice a goat in the name of lord Kromdor each month before playing")
- Serial Key (thats encripted)
- Captcha. Lots. Really silly ones
- Keywords from the manual (which doesn't exist!)
- Convincing the computer you are not a robot or pirate
- Pixel hunting
- Put the disc in the drive (no disc exists. How do you solve that one? ;D)
- Finding the "right" patch for the game
And whatever other mean things I can think off! XD
So apparently it's a sin that I'd never even heard of System Shock until you guys started talking about it, so I'm considering rectifying that. There's only one problem. I can't find anywhere to get it from.
^Yeah, it's in that murky no-man's-land of "completely unavailable through regular means/prices" and "not officially sanctioned abandonware". Amazon lists a new copy at $400, even. (with a trade-in value of 6.75... apparently PC games can be traded in... what the hell is going on with Amazon's SS2 listing?)
So apparently it's a sin that I'd never even heard of System Shock until you guys started talking about it, so I'm considering rectifying that. There's only one problem. I can't find anywhere to get it from.
Starting tomorrow, I shall isolate myself from distractions, and begin working on one of my ideas.
I'll have to get out the ol' Game Design book as reference, and get cracking.
The biggest barrier, is actually how I make the damn things.
So 2 ideas are pretty straight forward, but the other two are things I have NEVER seen done before, but can work in theory.
Coding and art are the main woes.
I'm not a coder, I only have experience with Game Maker, and to be honest, that is a bit limiting. However, I can't currently aford to use anything else like Monkey, so it will have to do.
Spriting can be offset by placeholders, but I still need to draw and visualise stuff, which I just suck at! :X
So apparently it's a sin that I'd never even heard of System Shock until you guys started talking about it, so I'm considering rectifying that. There's only one problem. I can't find anywhere to get it from.
System Shock 1 or 2? I've only ever played 2, but it was good.
Actually, Yahtzee seems to think that Bioshock is little more than System Shock 2 with a different coat of paint, so to speak.
Haven't you learned that everything always turns out the opposite of what you're aiming for? Like that time with Sim City when everyone moved into your oppressive police state, payed their taxes, and had excessive national pride?
You should aim to not get banned.
This seems reasonable. I did build a workers' utopia, after all... hmmm...
Holy shit, isn't $40 kind of steep for a 12 year old game? I might be better off trying this, depending on how high it gets bid in the next week. Or there's always more nefarious means, seeing as it's currently impossible for the developer to see any of my money anyway...
Irritated that when I stayed up to 2.00 in the morning to see a movie on TV and the fuse blows for no reason. I mean there was only the TV and the heater connected why would it blow. It's got me so shitted off especially since I can't get the DVD in my region.
Starting tomorrow, I shall isolate myself from distractions, and begin working on one of my ideas.
I'll have to get out the ol' Game Design book as reference, and get cracking.
The biggest barrier, is actually how I make the damn things.
So 2 ideas are pretty straight forward, but the other two are things I have NEVER seen done before, but can work in theory.
Coding and art are the main woes.
I'm not a coder, I only have experience with Game Maker, and to be honest, that is a bit limiting. However, I can't currently aford to use anything else like Monkey, so it will have to do.
Spriting can be offset by placeholders, but I still need to draw and visualise stuff, which I just suck at! :X
Huh, my main problem is coming up with ideas for games (as well as art, I can't draw a decent stick figure). Ah well.
Huh, my main problem is coming up with ideas for games (as well as art, I can't draw a decent stick figure). Ah well.
I have cool ideas all the time.
I just can't ever motivate myself to work on them.
(Its partially time, and partially because I am lazy, and distracted by anything and everything)
Well, originally, Conversation with Pictures was created to emulate the picture wars that normally occurred on any thread. So I guess it's gone full circle.
I swear, the way today's gone, it's like someone's grafted the Have a Conversation With Pictures thread onto this one. Not that it'd be the first time...
People are talking about my thread! I feel so important!
If you read TomPravets' opening remarks on the Conversation With Pictures thread, he says that it's there to emulate having a conversation with pictures just like Secret Fawful and Comrade Pants. Who originally had picture conversations on this thread.
Talking of classic FPS games, I decided to replay Half Life (and expansions) for the first time in a very long time. I really hope it holds up... at least until the Xen levels, at which point I will stop my run of the main game. I remember Xen just fine, thank you, and I have no desire to relive that.
Comments
>.>
Yet.
Oh, you shut your mouth, there is nothing remotely bad about the first show, you A- hey that guy kinda looks like you.
I'll second that girl!
And, some days are like today.
...Johnny better run, better run...
edit 80min later: you know; sometimes I feel old even though I'm not. I think it's this whole "growing up with the internet" thing. I mean literally. It was simply theory when I was a child and became pretty much what it is today when I was 16-17. Well, that and the fact I like a lot of music that was coming out around the time I was born.
T-there's just something in my eye...
Also; I resent the locking of the 'law and order out' thread by GuruGuru, as the game was simply what other NBC franchises would make fun adventure games.
Oh, that's what that was? I wasn't sure exactly what he was trying to say there, I just assumed he had the wrong forum. Like I said, it didn't seem like a forum game or even coherent to me. But if you take issue with it and see forum game potential in it, then have at it.
It's not a forum game. Also, it is indeed only barely coherent.
http://www.telltalegames.com/forums/showthread.php?p=531017&postcount=3
With your luck, you'll probably end up being elected to mod status.
I'm seeing my doctor again to talk about the results of my blood work and I've decided to ask if he can direct me to a psychiatrist (I could contact one directly but then it wouldn't be free).
However I'm happy to report that I've been dealing with the stress and doing all I could think of to lower it, and faced the triggers rather than avoid them (for instance if the idea of having to do something was cause of stress, I've gathered my strength and done it rather than procrastinate and grow more and more stressed out about it). I've also gathered a range of things that help relax me and force myself to do them even though I'm "not in the mood" when I start.
Sadly, I have had the hardest time sleeping in the past week, which is almost certainly related, but doesn't help. I'm hoping that will pass.
I'll probably have more to say after I see my main doctor on Monday.
(Bad luck is not helping. This morning I knocked over my Max figuring when I was trying to get a pen, His ears broke off!
I tried to stick them back on with superglue, but it didn't work, and started to eat away the paint, and it started to stick my fingers together, and I had glue all over my hands the whole day and I spent all my idle time just scraping it off!
Thats not the worse part either.
The worst part was realising how pointless and preventable all this was, since I didn't actually get to use the pen, as it burst before I had a chance to use it! X'O)
But I am trying to be optimistic, since I really hated being depressed the last time I hit rock bottom.
Good god I have my videogames. I'd go mad without them!
Sorry to hear about that. I had an experience with very mild nervous attacks a while back. On the day I would have a driving lesson, I would completely loose my appetite, and go without eating the entire day. I would usually vomit too (although only stomach acid came out). I went to group counselling classes, which helped a bit, but in the end, I solved the issue by taking a break from it and changed instructors, and it eventually righted itself after a couple of months (having had the symptons getting steadily worse for 9 months or so)
I think my issue was slightly similar to what you described (the build up), and you seem to be doing the right thing. I was always much better the moment I started my lesson, never feeling ill during one. There's not much I can really say to help you, considering your attacks sound far worse then what I used to have (or maybe still do. When I was working over christmas, I had a lack of appetite for most days, and I vomited once in the morning too.). I think counselling and psychiatrics can work well, but only if it's tailored to you. My course was 9 weeks long, and only half of one session was relevent to me. The rest was all about anger management, and dealing with arguements and stuff. But yeah, try everything. Something might help you. Have you tried rescue remedy? My mother swears by the stuff.
Haven't you learned that everything always turns out the opposite of what you're aiming for? Like that time with Sim City when everyone moved into your oppressive police state, payed their taxes, and had excessive national pride?
You should aim to not get banned.
In a bad way.
Basically its a videogame, a really basic one, but the real game is actually getting around to playing it.
So it would basically be DRM: The Video Game!
So it would include:
- "Online" activation, (which would be deliberately long and tedious, with "connection" errors, and lots of forms and tickboxes ("I agree to sacrifice a goat in the name of lord Kromdor each month before playing")
- Serial Key (thats encripted)
- Captcha. Lots. Really silly ones
- Keywords from the manual (which doesn't exist!)
- Convincing the computer you are not a robot or pirate
- Pixel hunting
- Put the disc in the drive (no disc exists. How do you solve that one? ;D)
- Finding the "right" patch for the game
And whatever other mean things I can think off! XD
http://www.systemshock.org/index.php?topic=211.0
Starting tomorrow, I shall isolate myself from distractions, and begin working on one of my ideas.
I'll have to get out the ol' Game Design book as reference, and get cracking.
The biggest barrier, is actually how I make the damn things.
So 2 ideas are pretty straight forward, but the other two are things I have NEVER seen done before, but can work in theory.
Coding and art are the main woes.
I'm not a coder, I only have experience with Game Maker, and to be honest, that is a bit limiting. However, I can't currently aford to use anything else like Monkey, so it will have to do.
Spriting can be offset by placeholders, but I still need to draw and visualise stuff, which I just suck at! :X
System Shock 1 or 2? I've only ever played 2, but it was good.
Actually, Yahtzee seems to think that Bioshock is little more than System Shock 2 with a different coat of paint, so to speak.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGxo2X4B_LE
System Shock 2 had more of a sci-fi feel, while Bioshock is more steam punk.
Alos, here's this for buying a copy: http://goo.gl/Gt39P
This seems reasonable. I did build a workers' utopia, after all... hmmm...
See if this doesn't improve your life dramatically.
Huh, I'll have to give that a try.
Holy shit, isn't $40 kind of steep for a 12 year old game? I might be better off trying this, depending on how high it gets bid in the next week. Or there's always more nefarious means, seeing as it's currently impossible for the developer to see any of my money anyway...
FLO NOMINAL.
That scared me.
Thanks for that. You have now redeemed this song for me, as the last webpage it was embedded in just about scarred me for life.
You know what I'm talking about. This link makes me feel a whole lot better.
Huh, my main problem is coming up with ideas for games (as well as art, I can't draw a decent stick figure). Ah well.
I have cool ideas all the time.
I just can't ever motivate myself to work on them.
(Its partially time, and partially because I am lazy, and distracted by anything and everything)
This for me, too. I know I'd love the damn game if I could just work past the incompatibilities and control hoopla.
^Truth^
People are talking about my thread! I feel so important!
... That's... Not... My.... NAME!!!! *angry rant here*
Dammit, you reminded me of The Best 404 Page Ever. Now I'm going to be stuck doing that all night.
Is that enough to get banned? I have 50 minutes to make good on my promise, here!
EDIT: Only haters delete tags.